Katie Melua

This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own…
And now I know that there's a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.

Corny poems

Some company are like bees to honey,
attracted by the lucarative rewards by remaining in the vicinity.

Some company are like the wind,
Changing direction and intensity without prior notice.

Some company are like the ecology,
Depending on each other for their survival.

And some company are like diamonds,
to be treasured and cherished for eternity.

Imagination

"You look like care bear!", a colleague of mine suddenly blurted out during lunch today. I was stunned for a moment. I would never have imagined myself as care bear, butwhat the heck, at least that's better than being narrowed down as hermit the frog...

Admittedly or not, sometimes you just couldn't help yourself but to equate a person's facial features to certain characters. I have friends who looks like jar jar binks, like shaggy in scooby doo, wolverine etc, (I shall not name them lest reprisals comes smoothly. hahah...).

When I was younger, I used to imagine numbers having a certain colour attached to them. And I still do now. Three is always a yellowish orange tinge, two is purplish red, six is dark green, seven in dark blue etc... Does anyone also have this "colour your numbers" syndrome?

Torment

Jiwa terasa kontang,
namun jadual tetap disaratkan,
perihal bius mengekang keperitan.

Hati terasa pilu,
namun zahir tetap ceria,
menatapi wajah insan si dia.

Omong kosong tanpa niat,
namun pedas tetap terasa,
meneguk air tanpa kelegaan.

Silence of the Night

Keheningan malam bagai sembilu,
menusuk sanubari,
setiap liang roma,
Ngilu, pedih, diseret-sorot.

Kesepoian bayu menyelubungi tubuh,
menyentak akal fikiran,
namun batin tetap resah,
sesak, lemas, diperap-rendamkan.

System Reset

This morning I woke up with the weird feeling of living on the wrong timespace. The songs on Fly FM sound weird... Good Charlotte's I just wanna live, Jojo's too little too late... Aren't these supposed to be hits 2-3 months ago??? And just As I was getting ready to jot doewn the whole song list for the blog, the list changed to the present era gain - Gwen's Sweet Escape, This Ain'a A scene etc... Hmm... Was wondering, is there a slip in the Matrix? , and time just turned back for 3 months?

Speaking about this, I recently had not 1, but 2 deja vu's. The first one happened when I was in Guardian with a colleague, and she mentioned to check on a peach body bath at a certain aisle. I'm certain I dreamnt of this or experirence this before. The second one was when I was sending my car over to Honda's service centre in Jalan Sg. Pinang. The sights and sound at a particular moment just seems so familiar, yet I have never been there before.

What's happening to me???...

Brand power

Just read an interesting article from The Sun about branding. The author actually made use of her expertise in the creative field to "brand" herself, calling it "unique selling propositions", or USPs for need of a TLA (that's a three letter acronym for "Three Letter Acronym") and hopes to qualify for the selection of "The Amazing Race".

This got me thinking, should we also not "brand" ourselves to compete for the attention of the ones we love. To showcase our qualities and downplay our bad points. Would this come naturally to us when the situation wrrants it, or will we need to dig out this rusted survival instinct from the depths of our leisure lives?

Hmm so how do I downplay my blurness? Any suggestions? :)

Alarm Call

I don't know had gotten into me today but I decided to call in for Fly FM's alarm call and managed to get through! So after chatting with the phone call handler gal which sound like Asha Gill, she asked me to hang up and the station will give me a call in like 5 seconds.

So, I waited and waited for Fly FM to call me back but they never did, until I decided to call in again and only then I found out my blunder - instead of giving out my phone number, I gave out the friend's phone number that needs a wake up call. hahah....So in the end, I think the whole thing was called off. Hopefully the other person din get frighten with all the weird phone numbers in the early morning. Anyways, at least the song I requested came thru, at 7.30 that is... Kaiser Chiefs rulez!!!

The Cube Connection

I recently had a peek at my housemates cube over a game of basketball at his company. The myth IS true. They have pantry with self dispensing Nescafe and Milo. They have cubes that is 1.5 times bigger than mine, and they have nice clean marble lined toilet vanity tops.

However, what catches my attention is the sense sterileness of the whole environment. There isnt even a single stary A4 paper, announcing some team activites or project development. It feels like Umbrella Corp in the zombie movie... (whats the name...) Even the air smells like antiseptic lotion. Maybe that's why most people can separate their work easily compared to my fellow colleagues. We are just too comfortable in our cubes!

The angry day

Anger fills me today like a slow burning molten lava, even though I had the company of interesting and witty people. I really don't know why I'm feeling this way.

Maybe its because she started talking to me again after several long weeks of silence and rejection, after I've just decided to remove her photo from my mobile, after I've given up hope. Or maybe its the feeling of a friend being made used of, and angry that this consequence may also befall upon me.

The movie I watched today does help to quell some of the anger, and reminded me of the pureness of love, but I still don't know what to do. Maybe the tarot card was right, my indecisiveness is always my Achilles Heel.

Shattered

Someone just shattered my whole notion of how to pursue a gal. Is it true that you need to be persistent and strike while the iron is hot? Shouldn't you actually start to build up the mutual feeling first, making sure the gal is comfortable with you, before making a move?

Anyways, at least according to her, the guy theory that categorises girls into "potentials" and "just friends" dos not apply. So does this mean that even if the relationship now is more buddy like, then there is still a chance to turn it over into something more meaningful?

Pening...

If you don't succeed, try and try again

All my life I have been taught that if you try hard enough in anything, you can overcome all adversity. I hope that this still hold true now in the working world. The world is your oyster. Hope that all my preparation does not just go to waste, and that it really does influence the decision making process of someone.

Dream Girls

Its been a while since I've watched a musical. I guess the last one was "the Producers".
While the producer is a light hearted comedy with all the laughs thrown in the right places, Dream Girls is quite serious, depicting the racial apatheid that still exist in the then white Americas. Are sacrifices in personal values and integrity worth it in breaking the proverbial glass ceiling? When do you know enough is enough? Does the ends really justifies the means?

Beyonce as the lead singer in "The Dreams", looking hot with the typical hippie hand band from the 70's

There are so many songs in the musical that I think no one can escape the cinema without at least having a tune stuck in their head. I had fun listening to the 60's and 70's pop music, while at the same time trying to discern what's exactly in the song that makes us immediately able to tag a song as belonging to a certain era. Jennifer Hudson rocks! Although at times, i think its her powerful vocals that is causing the ringing in my ears now. The official website has some of the songs featured.

Happiness is ...

I was awaken this morning by the sound of a sobbing girl. No this is not a ghost story. It's actually the radio station airing the grievance of a broken hearted girl. Fly FM had introduced this program called "Fix It" since around a month or two ago. But sometimes I think that things can get a little out of hand for the DJs to manage.
A lack of vocabulary and a hyena-like laughter does not a good shrink make. Anyways, its sad to see how they turn an OK situation into an even bigger mess. The situation that was to be "fix"ed is quite simple. A guy and a gal had a time out and the gal wanted to reconcile over the phone. But I guess even the DJs werent perepared for what happened next - the guy actually broke up with the gal over the phone... Kesian the girl...

Anyways, my day improved after a few smooth sailing events:- my Citibank credit card just got approved, and my work ran fine the first time it was set up (can kena nombor man...). But the best part was the movie I managed to catch coz of the smooth run. The words "you gotta dream, you gotta protect it" really got me thinking, coz normally you'll say "you gotta treasure it, or strive for it", but never protect it. Although selfish-sounding, Will Smith's explanation of the phrase does make sense. The movie does have its share of cliches and improbrable event (like how he manages to recover all the 3 stolen medical devices he's supposed to sell), but still its a nice and inspiring movie to lift my spirits up and look ahead to another hectic day tommorow.

May everyone be well and happy.

Smash

It seems that practice does make perfect. I was surprised to see how much a colleague of mine has improved his badminton skills today. Kena beaten flat out, though I'm don't really play this sports la, so still can be excused. Be careful man... I'll always resent the fact that you made me run around the whole courst macam orang kena sampuk...arrgghh...

Sleepless In Penang

I'm not sure why but I just can't shut my eyes to prepare for another big day next morning. I'm sure its not the caffeine.

Maybe its my internal clock which has been screwed up for the past 2 weeks. Maybe its the thought of another black Monday. Maybe its the cleanliness of my room after a super long period of unkeptness. Or maybe its thought of the many other housekeeping stuff which I can still tidy up and embark upon.

A colleague of mine recently went for a course of feng shui with an insightful revelation on the cause of his bad dreams. Should I also do likewise to my room to improve my luck in career, finance, and perhaps love?

Speaking of love, when do you know if a person is still within grasp, or have been out of your reach? When do you know to stop pursuing, and let things be? Is it when the other person is super secretive about revealing her group of friends she hang out with? Or when previously agreed upon plans are suddenly altered, mistakenly or not. or is it when the conversations start to turn from personal to just civil? Or is it when instant messengers are never turned on whenever you're online? Or is it when countless invitations are being turned down politely?

Conversely, when do you know if a friendship has the spark to turn into something more meaningful? Is it when you can converse the whole night away with each other until you miss the ride home? Is it when you preplan a birthday celebration weeks in advance? Which is more important? Common interest, and personality, or personal values of a person?

Hahah.... these are some open ended question I'm not really expecting for an answer anytime soon. Here's hoping that life's path will let me stumble upon some answers along the way.